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Nino Gaggi
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I think I get more work done during KQED's pledge week(s) than at any other time of the year.

Chess
Lucky Luciano
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I am so obsessed with Chess right now. I'm addicted to it. I play it when I wake up, I play it before I go to sleep, I play it on the train, I play it at the club, I play it all day at work.

I didn't use to be this bad. I played it before a little. My Dad is also addicted and growing up, I learned some basic tactics and strategy from him. He was too good for me though and I never got into it because I assumed it was too much of a thinking game and I wasn't smart enough for it. Which I think a lot of people also think, unfortunately.

That was until I got the Shredder Chess app for my iPhone. My skills have skyrocketed. I'm rated as an Advanced Player with an ELO of 1550. That's nothing to brag about, honestly, but it's pretty good for someone who only really started playing in January!

The more I play, the more I realize that it isn't neccesarily a game for brainiacs. It's a game for ruthless, competitive people who like to make their opponents squirm. If you enjoy giving people a choice of two horrible decisions, then chess is the game for you.

I watch stuff like this, all day:


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There was another round of layoffs at my work. I think I'm safe for another month...maybe.

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Nino Gaggi
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I am going through some rough times right now. I'm not even talking about the love problems. My money problems, which I never seemed to have before, are nevereneding. I feel like I can't keep my head above water. I've cut out all of the fat and they're still there. Is this my future????? I went to college so I could be upper-lower class???? I'm trying to think of things I can sell.

To paint a picture, one year ago, I was living with a girlfriend. We were making enough to support ourselves plus two rooms and the cat, not to mention frequent vacations and meals out. We were contemplating moving to the city or even Los Angeles. Now, I'm alone and I'm barely able to meet my bills, pay for my room and feed the cat. I feel like I'm stuck in the Bay Area. I've got enough of a niche carved out here that I'm confident I'll eventually be able to weather the storm and survive, but it's not a good feeling to feel like you're trapped somewhere. Sometimes it feels like I'm trapped in my own head.

Thankfully, creative pursuits are (mostly) free. I'm diving into those to keep me sane. I have been writing much more, which I give some credit to LiveJournal for encouraging. It becomes too easy to be lazy as a writer when you don't have to sit, collect your thoughts and write long form. I'm sorry, a status update doesn't do it for. Although, I can be clever and concise, I much prefer a longer format to explore some of my thoughts. A lot of this journal is done for myself as much as it is for an audience (that said, I do appreciate my audience, those that are left.).

I'm going to be in Los Angeles the weekend of the 14th if anyone wants to meet up.


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Lucky Luciano
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Had an excellent weekend because I didn't party at all. Well, I partied, but it was more like walking in the park party, going to the museum party and waking up at 8 AM party. I did go to a party at the Vulcan on Saturday, even though my ex and her new boyfriend live there. Didn't really feel it and took off early. I was operating under the mistaken theory that since I've "moved past it" and "forgiven her," that I could now be normal at a social function with her. I was pretty normal, on the outside, but on the inside, I was all torn up. So I learned a little lesson about not trying to push it.

It was all for the better, anyway. Leaving the all night party at midnight let me wake up in time to wander around Golden Gate Park and the Alemany Fleak Market all day with my rooommate, Slice. The day before we hit up the newly reopened Oakland Museum of Art (Slice's girlfriend is out of town). There were lots of cool pieces at the museum but the coolest was the Bronze reproduction of the chair that Huey Newton sits in that famous photo of the Black Panther founder. You can even sit in it at the museum, although you don't get to hold a gun and a spear.


Stencils
drunk
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I've been getting into Stencil Art. Maybe because my drawing skills are a little lackluster and I've always liked collage. I've been designing stencils lately and plan to go bombing sometime soon. I'll post pics when I do. Here's some cool stencil art though.




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Nino Gaggi
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Any pain, sadness, remorse you may feel. Just swallow it. It's the past now, nothing you can do.

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Nino Gaggi
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This is so fucked

The oil rig accident is going to be the worst ecological disaster in our lifetimes. I don't think people really get it yet but this article does a good job of describing the situation. When the White House says it is preparing for the worst, the worst is pretty fucking bleak. It just makes me angry and at the same time powerless.

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Nino Gaggi
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Today I forgave my former girlfriend. I decided that for my own mental health, it had to be done. The last two days have been extremely stressful as I prepared myself for it. I had such a crazy range of emotions, from nostalgia to anger. I barely slept. I could just lie in bed and toss and turn, as I thought about our relationship.

I think it surprised her. We both cried a lot. It made it easier that I felt she genuinely remorseful. It felt good even if I'm still a little morose. But that's that, I did it, I can't go back. I have let go and moved on. It's a new experience for me. That's for sure. I don't think I'm a saint or anything, I mostly motivated by selfish reasons: mental health and stress. But i definitely still have a lot of respect for her and her family.

On the bright side for the readers of this blog, I won't have to mention it anymore.

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Nino Gaggi
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Insomnia strikes!

I deactivated my Facebook today. It's funny, Facebook tries to guilt you out of quitting. It has pictures of your friends with quotes like "Colin will miss you!" I heard you have to write a 3,000 word essay, signed in triplicate if you actually want to delete and not just deactivate.

I am trying very hard right now to be gracious and positive. Predictably, it has been difficult.

There's just a certain comfort in negativity that's hard to give up...

But I'm trying.

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