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Nino Gaggi
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I'm heartbroken.

I managed to drive away someone who I cared deeply about. I suppose it's my fault for getting my hopes up but it still really hurts. I considered this person one of my closest friends, only to have her dump me a few days before Christmas because she realized she wasn't in love with me and hated my personality. She resented spending time with me.

Ouch.

It doesn't make sense but I guess that's what I get for dating a 23-year-old. All my friends warned me before I got into the relationship but I didn't listen. I don't know, I guess it's hard for me to accept because I can't believe the things she is saying. If she hated my personality so much, then why did he hang out with me so often? We had good times together, i can't believe it was all torture.

I talked to a few friends and they tried to assure me that it's something she is going through and it doesn't have anything to do with me, but I don't know if I accept that. It has to be some sort of reflection on myself.

I feel like I'm right back to square one after my relationship with Liz ended. They both ended it saying I was a negative person. I'm really hurt by that. Maybe I can't see that aspect of my personality but believe it or not, I think of myself as an optimist. I want to improve my lot in life. I try to improve my artistic skills.

Breakups are the worst. I was feeling so good about myself and now I'm living in a world filled with self doubt. I cared for this woman deeply but she resented me. It hurts.

I think my problem is that I've been looking for happiness in romantic relationships instead of myself. I need to move on. I need to work on myself.

Should I try to stay friends with her? I really did get a long with her and she still says she wants to be friends. Whatever that means. I don't know. I'm tired of forcing people out of my life because I used to have sex with them. I've already lost my best friend and I feel like I'm going to lose another one. It's really sad.

I guess George Michael was right.


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wow sounds like a total bitch!

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